The father instantly cried out, “I do believe, but help me overcome my unbelief!”
Mark 9:24 NLT
As a Christian, whose faith means the world to me, it’s hard to admit to having unbelief. I have faith in The Lord. I come to him when I’m troubled. I pray consistently and read my Bible. I go to Church every week. So how can I have unbelief? Where does it come from? How do I make it go away?
When someone I love is going through turbulent times, the Spirit works through me and I instantly have the words to reassure them, point them to Jesus, provide them with positivity and support, and pray over them from the depths of my soul. Normally I have the perfect verse that “I just came across a couple days ago!” (Seriously, it’s amazing how often He prepares me ahead of time!)
But things are a little different when it comes to MY life and MY obstacles. There are just so many, I sometimes get carried away. I’m just a simple girl who wants to live a simple life, but just when I survive one disaster, another catastrophe seems to be charging in.
Usually I’m pretty good at praying immediately. I invite him into my chaos. I let him know, that I know I can’t do it without him. I often go looking for an answer in the Bible.
But routinely, once I get past that initial reaching-out stage, I start thinking about what I should do next.
How do I solve this?
How do I recover financially?
Who can I turn to for support when I feel like I have no one?
How do I make this go away?
The more I think, and the more that I try to solve the problem myself, the more I worry.
I work harder.
I try harder.
I search for answers and
I research topics.
Because there’s got to be a solution….I’ve GOT to find the solution!!
I get myself all worked up until I find myself in desperation, reaching out and asking Him, “Lord, why haven’t you fixed this yet? You say you love me and your plans for me are good. Why am I always hurting? Why is there always something wrong that’s beyond my control, no matter how hard I try to get everything right in my life? Where are You, Lord? I asked you for help and I can’t see you working in this!”
THAT is my unbelief talking. For me, it starts with trying to be the fixer instead of waiting for The Fixer to fix.
My unbelief tells me this is urgent.
My unbelief tells me I have to move NOW.
My unbelief tells me I need to find the answer.
My unbelief tells me I’m alone in this – just like everything else I’ve ever been through.
But was Jesus ever in a hurry? How many stories are about Jesus rushing to help someone with a miracle? None.
Because He KNOWS His plan.
He knows what’s coming, and that it’s for your good.
He knows what His power can do.
And He wants us to trust that.
It’s our emotions that tell us we need the situation to end now.
Our comfort level tells us we can’t take any more.
Our worldly needs tell us how serious this issue is.
“At once the boy’s father shouted, “I do have faith! Please help me to have even more.””
Mark 9:24 CEV
But I DO have faith. I just need a little more, Lord.
My faith tells me that he DOES love me.
My belief tells me that His plans for me ARE good.
My trust in Him tells me that He will NEVER abandon me.
Lord, I feel stuck in these circumstances and I can’t see the way out. But I know you are there. I know you are working on the outcome. You know that patience doesn’t come easy for me and my worries are always swimming through my head. Lord, help me focus on my faith in You, my hope, and my contentment with all that you have already provided instead of my current situation. Strengthen my faith as I wait for You and help me overcome any unbelief that begins to take root in my thoughts. I love You, Lord and I trust You fully to handle this troubled time that I cannot get through on my own. Amen